Rage

I've come out alive/fighting the rage inside/I cannot let it go/cannot explain without wounding / don't know how/to make sense/of the chaos inside/turn it green/blue/tranquil/in touch/in order/out of insane/out of order/out of me/learning to make it work/make it power/make it truth/comprehensible/palatable/ logical/rational/detachable/make you get how I feel/understand that its real/that its present/ it's valid/honest/not because you think so/ not anymore/but because I finally say it is so/ because I finally get it myself/and while I know I'll forget/that I will eventually fight myself again/ I will remember/I will get better/and you will have no choice/but to accept who/what/how I am/or get out of my way/ survival is now imperative/now I'm living for me/no regrets/no promises/except to remember the rage/and to make it mine/as it needs to be