somewhere beyond the middle

Frustrated, irritated, annoyed... I could go on, but what's the point?!?! Being in love and in lust is a royal conundrum in of itself. MB, I could strangle you. You say you want to talk to me, yet you say nothing for two days in a row.

What- The -Fuck -Ever.

I could easily fall back into the same feelings, patterns, longing desires that occurred the first two times... but honestly, it's not worth it. I don't think you're worth it. I fully admit that I've fallen hard for you. Would have done anything you asked if you had just communicated with me. But you don't. And I've been down that road before. You know that. You know where I've been.

I'm over being the nice girl. As easy as it would be to polite and all that, I simply don't feel like it. I'm cutting out a lot of people that i had in my life... and some of them have been there for years. Decades even. I'm done having people in my life that I cannot trust, that I question my self worth when I'm around them. I'm too old for that shit anymore. I'm too tired to be carrying that drama anymore. I could list any number of anecdotes, song titles, quotes to demonstrate what I feel... but I'll simply sum it all up with two artists that rock my world.

Like I said, you're not the only person. Due to budget cuts (of fucks given), the light of the MEW caring train has been SHUT OFF. Good bye.


Alicia Keys- Karma (reggatone mix) [https://youtu.be/Kcb4yVzyuIg]

Nicki Minaj- The night is still young [https://youtu.be/IvN5h9BE444]