Labelle Come Into My Life Chameleon 1976

Been doing a lot of thinking is of late... This is one of the songs whose meaning stands the test of time. And completely says where I'm at within these current times of mine. Enjoy.

Love: unrequited

"Tell me baby, do they make a medicine for heartbreak?" [Justin Timberlake "Drink You Away"]

Bitterly falling in out in out of love

Desperately clinging on to nothing there
Hoping that This Time, it's right

Swinging alone on this damm branch of mine
I'm Wily Coyote chasing Road Runner-
Repeatedly blowing myself up in process

Saw that fucker off; tie me to the next one

Still ain't the right one

Playing Moody blues love songs for something that doesn't belong

Laughing at the fools saying nay; not realizing I'm doing the same

Get under my skin, I lose, you win
And there I go back in love alone again

Drown my confused sorrows in wine and music Thank you not Mr. for wasting Time

Hell if I know, going whichever way the wind blows, running the same street to and fro

Follow the words, but the lies are in the verbs... and I was never any good in English class

Playing a game of love, always picked last

{work in progress. MEW 9.14}

I have trouble playing with my Words

I don’t let them out like I used to

I say to them;

            “Just a moment- hold that thought”

“Wait your turn”

                        “Let me finish this round of Tetris…”

and other things

I surreptitiously tell them to hide, to wait; ‘I’ll find you later, and we’ll conversate then’

But, tired of waiting, they disappear.

Grown cold with disuse, slack from non-flexion, my Words exist only to speak ordinary words.

No longer perceived as important are the glimpses of stratospheric imaginations.

No wonder my books have grown dusty… A forced silence begetting nothing to say

Jealous then, I find myself peering upon others’ words; salient treatises expounding on varying subjects… Moving minds and persuasive arguments of linguistic merit.

I applaud soundlessly and screamingly excited- “Here is one whom has not been silenced!” Vociferously proclaiming their truth in all its unblemished glory.

I then give over to wondering- Why can’t I? Where are my Words to speak so soundly? How have they gone? Why didn’t they wait?!?!

I have never understood, that Words are capricious beings. They come along on their own whims and settle like fairy dust upon the minds of bards. One must be willing to follow their pursuit and dance accordingly- or you shall lose them.

I have lost many a Word that way.

I have ignored their call to dance- and so missed a glimpse of immortality.

I have shushed the voice that speaks- thus leaving the poem behind.

It is only in the questioning and writing of this that I fully understand- Words will not wait.

So now I know, not to turn off the music, shush the whisper, or play the next round…

Instead, I will be, and wait now for them;

and hope that they don’t tell me to wait when they arrive!

Rajdulari - "Natural" Official Music Video

Its been a long time coming.... but I finally understand where I am!! And this is the perfect song to express that. Go Rajdulari!!!

thoughts on a facebook post

Life has been interesting since the last post I put on here... breakups, friend shakeups, quit my job, dealing with MORE unresolved baggage. Growing never ends.

So I wrote a post on my FB today...and i had an interesting immediate reaction from a friend/family member. I've been processing it for the past few hours, and this is what I came up with.

This I know (pain)

    Sometimes
                when one is hurting
    When what is inside
                      seems like a never ending abyss
And the pain seems too much

     The days you cry yourself awake
              because you don't know how or why

      When looking in your bathroom mirror
                  is a HUGE act of courage

       Facing the world means dealing with some sort of personal demon
                           every-- single--day---

       You are bleeding so profusely on the inside
                       you don't ever believe it will stop

And all that is inside, just seems too much

      You don't want platitudes
                      don't want to be patronized
                                  don't want to hear "cheer up"

What you need, is love
           pure love
                 unconditional love
"I am here for you love"

You may not know where I've been, or what lies ahead, but because I exist, you love me
Because I am human, you love me
I may be a complete stranger, but you have compassion for me
You empathize, without judgement, w/o expectations, w/o comparison
You hear my story, and accept it as my own (journey)
There is no need for me to defend myself

[Insert "Bridge Over Troubled Water" lyrics... http://www.metrolyrics.com/bridge-over-troubled-water-lyrics-simon-and-garfunkel.html]

When the pain gets too much... ... ... love me
When I want to give up... ... ... be patient with me
When I'm bleeding on the inside... ... ... listen to me
If I can't speak it out... ... ... simply be quiet with me
When I'm feeling broken... ... ... sit with me
When I can finally admit my flaws and all I've needed to say... ... ... accept my words
And I will do the same for you.

(and that wraps the poem)

*Remember- no one is on the exact same path, or  the same journey at the same time. Although we may walk with each other, we don't always know what's going on in the hearts of the person/friend/coworker/whomever that is next to us. You never know what someone is truly carrying. If they talk- Listen to HEAR, not to reply. Every word spoken doesn't need a counter reply. Sometimes, its enough to finally get the words out.